Marriage and then some...

E-Reader

I want an E-reader but don’t know which brand is the best?

Kindle?, Kobo E-Reader? or buy a tablet like an IPAD?

Letting things happen…

We have been trying for a baby for a few months now.  It seems as if babies and pregnancies are all around us and we are stuck in the wanting one but having no luck stage.

I wrote a post a few weeks back about giving myself until September  before getting things checked out. That’s still my plan.  But I need to take a step back from it all. I am deleting the trying to conceive forums and the websites and all the ’ this is helpful to fall pregnant’ stuff and just going to go with the flow.

Husband is right. It will happen when it’s meant to happen. It sucks that it hasn’t yet, and I really really feel like a failure because my body is doing what I want it to do. I feel like everyone else’s body seems to agree with them and let them fall pregnant but why won’t mine!! I want more than anything to give my husband the gift of a child and for us to start our little family.  But the stress and anxiety over doing it all is a lot and I think I need to relax.

So for the next couple of months, no obsessing over dates and symptom spotting. No worrying about how many days past ovulation I am and whether it is too early to test or not or whether this symptom is a possible pregnancy symptom.  Of course I will still do the right things in regards to timing of sex and not doing anything that will harm our chances but I think I just need to chill out about it.  Easier said than done though.

These things take time and my body obviously needs more time than others. There’s nothing I can do about it.  I am at peace with it. Kinda. The wanting one so badly is still right there. And crosses my mind a million times a day. And both sister and sister in law being pregnant and all our friends trying to have babies. It’s all part of everyday life now. It’s a constant reminder of what my body isn’t doing.

But for now… its time to just keep hoping it happens soon.

 Good things about today…

·         Feeling much better J This cold seems like it is finally starting to let up J

·         Goodbye kisses from husband on my forehead this morning.

·         It’s Friday! What’s not to love about that!

·         No plans for the weekend. Lazy weekend!!

·         Should hopefully find out today when our new car is coming!

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gypsyrose15:

I need more TTC blogs! Like/reblog this so I can follow you. :)

I have been really bad at  doing this  daily so I will answer the rest here and be done with it!!

If you and your partner opened a store, what would it be like (based on your combined interests and talents)?

I don’t know if a store is the right word.  I would love to open a restaurant/ bar/ club/ café with husband as crappy as the hours and work would be. But in the café/ restaurant part I would love it to be like a homy environment with lots of husbands photos on the wall for sale, as well as good wholesome meals that everyone likes to eat that are normal everyday food with a twist with lots of cakes and desserts as well.  As for the Bar/Club I would like it to have to areas, one that is like a proper dance club room and the other that is more of a relaxed gathering area where you can sit and have a few drinks with friends and dance to some live music/ bands and  serves tapas/ small meals, kinda like a wine/ cocktail bar. The club room would be one that has a dj in and has plays dance music.  Combines the best of both worlds. Husband loves the clubs and the dance music and I love live music and a more chilled atmosphere.

Where is one new location you would like to go on a date?

Hmm, tough, I would love a fun day out at the beach with husband and Ollie or like a nice hike or picnic in the country where there is some falls/ dams (lakes)

What is one thing your partner does in the bedroom that you find irresistible?

 What happens in our bedroom, stays in our bedroom ;)

 What is one new thing you would like to try in the bedroom?

As above !

Which upcoming event (music, sport, theater) would you love to go to with your partner?

Cirque du Soleil is here again and I love their shows so probably that. Or Comedian  Jeff dunham.

Plan a make-believe vacation: where would you two go and what would you do?

Hawaii and the US. Just travel around and see all the cool touristy things. Would love to go to New York and Las Vegas.

If you two bought a pet (or another pet), what would it be and what would you name it?

 Another labrador and not sure on a name.

How would you like your partner to regularly show their affection: physical touch, words or affirmation, acts of service, quality time, or gifts?

I am a really touchy feely person. Little hugs, touches here and there, holding hands, cuddles all make me feel really connected and safe in a relationship.  I guess if I had to pick something I wish husband told me that he loved me more often.  I guess I just really love it when I know that I have crossed his mind or entered his thoughts during the day or  at some point when he isn’t with me.

 What is one habit you would like your partner to break?

I would love him to stop snoring but its not really a habit or something you can break. But gee its frustrating! I know I do it sometimes and its drives him nuts as well….

What is one thing you love about your relationship today?

One thing I love about us today, is that we are us. We bounce back, even after a fight. We get through things together. Cause that’s the vow we made to each other at the wedding.

I was just trying to help.

Before I start, I want to say despite what I am saying below, I could not be prouder of my husband for what he has achieved career wise and I could not be more appreciative of everything that he does to make sure we have a good life. I appreciate beyond belief the hours he works and how hard he works.  I love him even more for wanting to make the change to a career that gives us a better life.  I am so proud of him.

Yesterday my sister rang with some job information about a possible job for husband.  I rang husband about it and we ended up in a fight. He told me I didn’t listen. I do listen  and I know why he was saying he couldn’t do it. I know he thinks he doesn’t have the skill or is fast enough at the work that has to be done and that he isn’t experienced enough for it. I was just passing the message along and thought he could at least ring the guy and see what the job was about before dismissing it completely.

I was jut trying to help but I messed up. I didn’t mean to or want to cause a fight but I did. Last night all I was trying to do was help. I thought it might have been something that he could look into. Something else may have come out of it. I wasn’t trying to make him feel bad about himself because he thinks he can’t do the work well enough. I just thought that it might have been something he might have been interested in. I thought he could at least call and speak to the guy about the job and see what work it was and what it entailed before he dismissed it. I feel like sometimes he is so freely dismisses things instead of at least putting a feeler out there to see what it is or what it involves.  I know it is discouraging to get knocked back or not feel like you can do something that you are supposed to know how to do.  I don’t want to pressure him into any kind of job that he doesn’t want. And I know I am probably guilty of it. 

I just want him to be happy. I am a problem solver by nature. I just want to help him find a job that he wants and is happy doing. I just miss having a happy husband. I can see he is so unhappy in his job, and in his life and that he is worried about things for the future.

I just wish he was happy and content again. I miss that husband. I miss having a husband that doesn’t worry all day and night about our future because he isn’t in a job that he is happy and secure in. I miss my husband that is confident in himself and his job. Husband’s confidence is low and he makes comments and I can see  and feel it.  We are all only trying to help him. I just want him to see himself and have the confidence in himself that I have in him and so does everyone else. I just wish he could see that and see how highly we all think of him.  

I don’t want him to take any old job though. And I don’t want him to feel like I am pressuring him to take any old job. I want him to take one he is going to enjoy and like. He has put up with me  doing so much study to get to where I am and I want to support him in whatever he wants to do whether it be study or a complete career change again like he did for me. I don’t care. I just want a happy husband. I don’t care what he earns. Him being happy is more important to me than him earning big bucks.

I don’t know maybe I just step back and let him do this on his own. I look daily for positions for him and anything that may be possible. I don’t tell him about that. Maybe I just need to let him do this on his own.   I just wish he could see that I am only trying to help. I wish he would talk to me more about it and his worries.

So husband, if you’re reading this, I love you and I support you and I am proud of you. I will support you in whatever you want to do. But when you make a decision on what that is, and if you want my help to figure out how to get there, then all you have to do is ask. I will do anything to get you want you want. I’m more than happy to.

Reblog if you want an Anon’s honest opinion of you.

juneofthemoon:

Bring it bitches. It’s a 3 day weekend.

(Source: sluts-b0oze-and-partying)

Trying something new for dinner tonight.

I found this recipe on my Pinterest and it looks delicious. It’s a Nigella Lawson dish.

It’s  Spanish chicken  with chirizo and potatoes.  I think I will team it with some fresh steamed beans/ carrots and a sundried tomato and mushroom couscous (for husband).

Let me know if anyone wants the recipe J